2025 Reading List

All right! So this past year I was attempting to get to 30 books on BOTM’s reading challenge, so many of the following are books I received through that subscription service. I got a bit derailed (from everything really) in March, but still attempted to keep going, and didn’t really taper off until I hit October. (September and October tend to be my “give up” months for challenges, if anyone hasn’t noticed the pattern). As a warning, many spoilers beyond for all of the books mentioned as I challenge myself to even remember and summarize what I read through the year!

Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir

Although not as compelling as The Martian, I really enjoyed this one. I didn’t find out until after reading it that there’s a movie on the way as well, and I’m pretty excited about it. The sun is dying, and scientists discover that the reason is because a tiny alien species is devouring it. Tracing a path of dying stars, they find that origin system for the creatures has a healthy star, and they decide to put together a mission to find out why that one in particular has survived. The main character is a science teacher who gets tangled up in the mission as an advisor and trainer for the scientists they plan on sending, until a massive accident results in him being sent along. He wakes in an alien solar system only to find that the rest of the team is dead. Since he’s Earth’s last hope, he doesn’t give up – he works diligently to find out why this star is fine. While there, he meets another intelligent alien, and they begin to communicate with each other. As it turns out, this alien’s home world is also experiencing a similar problem, and he is also there to try to save his home. Similarly, his entire crew died on the way. As it turns out, they didn’t have a full understanding of the dangers of space travel, and they all died because of radiation – as the engineer, the surviving alien was often in a more shielded part of their ship, and thus managed to avoid getting sick. Together, they find out that the reason the tiny sun-devouring aliens haven’t consumed their home sun completely is because they have a natural predator in the environment that keeps their numbers manageable.

Like the Martian, everything is well written, and the character has an amusing enough voice that keeps you engaged throughout. The science in this feels less solid than it did in the Martian, but everything is very reasonable. Throughout the book, the main character is trying to remember how he ended up on the mission, and by the time he’s found out he’s still too devoted to the mission to really do anything about his anger. Him and the alien work through everything, find a solution, and start to return home, but he realizes that his new friend is going to die without his help. He still manages to send his results home, and detours to help the alien, but this means that he’s stranded and unable to return to Earth. He still manages to make a new life for himself in a special habitat the aliens make for him on his friend’s home planet. The ending does almost feel too cutesy, but as far as endings go wasn’t horrible.

This Inevitable Ruin by Matt Dinniman

A holdover from 2024 when I was reading through the entire series. In this one, Carl and Donut are completely in the Faction Wars floor. Instead of players being used by the existing Factions, Carl has managed to become the leader of his own faction, and has also gotten the NPCs a spot of their own as well. The rules have also been changed so that the people outside of the game that have joined Faction Wars are actually at risk of dying. They’ve also got a whole army of volunteers from previous games who have joined to help.

This book also included small snippets of other Dungeon Anarchist Cookbook authors and their “inevitable ruins” – some of them within this present Faction Wars as some of them are volunteers that return to help Carl. It makes a lot of it very bittersweet. Also this is where I caught up with the series – the next book isn’t quite out yet, but I’m looking forward to it quite a bit.

Margo’s Got Money Troubles by Rufi Thorpe

Margo is a young woman who goes to college and gets pregnant while sleeping with one of her married professors. He doesn’t want to mess up his marriage, so he breaks things off with her and his mom pays her to not mess with him. Her own mother has very little interest in helping to take care of a baby and very vocally tells her daughter so upfront. Her roommates are also college students, and because they did not sign up to live with a baby, they both move out of the apartment. Margo is very ill prepared for motherhood and has no support system. Her boss gives her an ultimatum to take a weekend off and find someone to watch her kid so she can work – she can’t, so she’s fired. Without roommates, the total value of the rent is on her.

At this point, her father re-enters her life. He is an ex-professional wrestler who has been in and out of rehab for addiction. Margo and her mother were always his “other” family – he would come to visit whenever he was doing shows in their town, but always returned to his wife and kids. He’s finally divorced his wife and was going to propose to Margo’s mom, only to find out she has a fiance now, so instead he shows up on Margo’s doorstep and asks for a place to crash. He seems thrilled to help his daughter with a little bit of rent money and taking care of the baby.

Margo hears about OnlyFans and decides to give that a try. She begins pretty good but isn’t making as much as she wanted, so she confesses what she is doing to her dad and asks for his help in coming up with ideas. At first he’s disappointed in her, but eventually comes around to seeing it as a “show” like wrestling, and advises her to create a character and reach out to other content creators so they can make videos where their characters interact. Margo comes up with a weird alien girl who is always doing slightly odd stuff as she learns about Earth.

The videos really take off and Margo begins to make pretty good money, but when the professor finds out that she is making OnlyFans videos he becomes concerned about the environment that his child is in and calls CPS and challenges her for custody. She does get everything worked out in the end though. Oh, there’s also a love story thrown in where one of the dude’s sending money on OnlyFans chats with her and they fall in love and meet. And her dad relapses but they work out a good rehab plan for him.

It’s not too bad of a story, but the main character is so naive at times. Mostly it’s because she’s young, and perhaps a lot of that is very true for someone that age, so maybe I’m having trouble relating because I’m older now. The friendships and party habits were also a bit annoying to me, and the ending felt too neatly tied up for everything that happens within the story. I can’t remember whether the baby even felt relevant beyond set dressing for the story?

Honey by Isabel Banta

The premise is that it’s the late 90’s/early 00’s and a young girl rises to pop star fame, and what that does with her life. Considering the time frame, I was expecting more media frenzy and slut shaming and exploitation, because that was a lot of the problematic issue for young pop stars of that time period (think Britney) and while it briefly touches upon some of that, it wasn’t really the main focus of the story. I think the main focus was her big crush on some guy and trying to get that relationship just to find that it didn’t really fit what she was thinking it would be, and how the love triangle aspect kind of embittered her one important friendship. And a lot of the issues and things described felt more like modern day problems than problems of that time frame.

Anyhow, the main character matures and then develops a relationship with a producer and they make great music together and she gets herself on track or some shit.

The records on the cover are arranged the way they are because her only definable personality trait is big boobs.

Sleep Tight by J.H. Markert

I honestly can’t remember much about this.

There’s a killer. I think the main character is a cop? Her son goes missing? The killer is making it like her dad’s old murders, or like the murders of someone her dad caught? It was pretty generic thriller stuff. I don’t remember liking it or hating it. It just was.

Ready or Not by Cara Bastone

This one is a pretty generic love story. Woman gets pregnant by one night stand, finds out the father was just on a break with his ex and is already back together with her, so she’s going the single mother route. Her best friend’s brother, who she’s known her entire life (and – surprise – has always been in love with her) steps up and helps her out along every step of her pregnancy. The father also wants to be a bit involved, but it causes some drama with his girlfriend. The main character helps him to see that his girlfriend is actually a bit too controlling and that he doesn’t really want to be with her. Over the course of the pregnancy, she falls in love with the childhood friend’s brother and they move in together to be a happy family at the end.

I do remember that the main character has author voice sometimes, where it doesn’t quite fit the story to have a certain moralistic liberal idea but the main character decides to lecture people on it so that the author can make it very clear where she stands. I lean liberal, and I don’t mind when the ideas are presented naturally, but I dislike when characters just feel like a mouth-piece for ideology.

Regardless, it’s a cute story and there’s a nice little sex scene in it.

You Like It Darker by Stephen King

Spotted it in the store and decided to take a break from BOTM books. For one, the title is inspired by a song I like, and for another, it’s King. That being said, none of the stories are darker than usual for King. If anything, a lot of it feels like a rumination on getting old and dying alone or with a sense of failure. The opening story especially stood out for me in its contemplation of whether success can be had without at least a core of talent. Another stand out for me was a story that kind of re-does “A Good Man is Hard to Find” by Flannery O’Conner, though that might be because I had to read it about three or four times in college. In that story, an old woman gets her son’s family lost and killed by robbers during a road trip. In King’s take, an old man saves his family in a similar situation – it definitely had more a “feel good” feel than most of the rest of the book and its inspiration.

I mean, it’s Stephen King. I liked it.

Dragonfruit by Makiia Lucier

Mixing Western style fantasy with a Pacific Island aesthetic. The main character is a girl who’s father was banished for using a dragon’s egg to save her from death, when it could have been used to save the island’s princess. Her father dies after, and she tries to find an egg to take back to her home. While following a seadragon that is showing signs of laying an egg soon, she ends up back on her home island – she is welcomed back, but there is a little bit of drama. She and the prince go on a mission to find the eggs across the island.

There are some fun ideas at play. For one, there is a certain magic that only works on her island for her own people, where a tattoo appears on their skin that can come to life and aid them in ways throughout, and her own appears at the end of the story. She also has a connection with seadragons because the egg of one was used to save her. I remember that there were also people that were “European” that were visiting as well (in quotes, because it was a fantasy world entirely so they weren’t really European, per se).

It did take me awhile to get through it, because it was easy to put down and not pick back up. But it was a fun story when I was getting into it.

Final Girls by Riley Sager

In this book, there are three women who survive similar horror movie situations where they were the sole survivors. One of them suggests meeting for support, but the other two are reluctant. One day, the initial one that suggested the meeting ends up dead, which prompts the more mysterious person to approach the main character.

It’s a thriller. I guess I’m not as super into them? Sometimes they come together really nicely, and generally Riley Sager is very popular and manages to not make things too predictable or eye rolling most of the time. This is also one of Sager’s more popular novels. I think I had heard so much about it being so great beforehand that I was a little disappointed in the end. I don’t remember a lot of it to be honest, but I do specifically remember the ending as being annoying. The main character hears about a young woman (a teenager, really) that has gone through a horrible thing and has become the sole survivor of that event. She goes through great lengths to travel to her and sneak into her hospital room to introduce herself and offer support as a fellow final girl. And it just struck me as… creepy?

But if you like Riley Sager, you’d like this.

Liquid: A Love Story by Mariam Rahmani

I disliked this one.

The main character is kind of arrogant, an intellectual with a PhD that seems to look down on American culture despite being so obviously entrenched in it. The core love story is obvious – she’s in love with her white college friend, but he keeps breaking up and going back to some other girl. She doesn’t specifically say that she loves him, and he doesn’t reveal until the end that he’s loved her all along, but it’s very apparent that’s who she’s ending up with. She decides she wants to marry rich and as a matter of math, decides to limit herself to 100 dates after which she’ll pick the person from the 100th date and marry them. She goes through a series of dates and one night stands, some kind of awkward, some already married, some not good fits. In the middle of the book, her father gets sick, and she travels to Iran to help care for him. While there, she has a romance with his neighbor, an artist. The artist introduces her to her friend group while they are seeing each other.

Her father dies and leaves her his house and belongings in Tehran. She considers living there at first, but some of the realities of life there begin to hit her. The liberal queer group of her artist are all wealthy and intellectual, but seem to look down on her and treat her like a child, which chafes for her. She attempts to find books to perhaps help with her research in a project she is interested in writing, and the books are banned (she still gets them, just that it becomes a longer conversation wherein the bookseller seems to decide whether it is all right to trust her with the sale). After deeply considering what life there may be liked for her, she decides to end things with her artist girlfriend and returns to the United States, leaving renting the house to an uncle.

Back home, her college bestie seeks her out and reveals his feelings and that the poems he writes are all about her. While it is a very good book, it was hard to tell if the main character absorbed a lesson, but I feel that I might be judging it a bit on the harsh side owing to my general dislike of her.

Five-Star Stranger by Kat Tang

This one has kind of a fun concept – there is an app where people can rent the services of other individuals to arrive and pretend to be a relationship of some sort. If you need someone to go to a funeral and act a certain way, or a charming date to a family gathering, you can use this app to find that person and pay them for a few hours of their time. The main character is a guy who is very highly rated on the app, and he has built his entire life around having an entirely professional demeanor in regards to his job – he doesn’t let personal feelings get in the way, and he doesn’t engage in sex because its serious work for him. One of his regulars is a woman who has hired him to come visit once a week and pretend to be her daughter’s dad – she is a single working mom but wants her child to grow up with a father figure. They’ve concocted an entire story over the years of him having a job that keeps him away for the entire week. The girl is getting older, and he finds himself actually caring for her in a paternal matter. He has also recently taken a job pretending to be the brother of a girl in college. She is attempting to write a fictional story but having trouble relating to her characters, so she hires him to act like the brother acts in her story, to have a “first hand” feel of what it would be like. She also tries to discuss what his job is like with him and learn about him as an individual beyond the role she hired him for.

These things are challenging his professionalism. We also get insight into his relationship with his mother when he was younger, and how that affected his ability to form interpersonal relationships. Sex is a weird taboo for him because he relates it to something that caused loss for him before, and now it feels wrong. His entire apartment is composed of just different clothes for the different roles he might have to play. But the relationship with the girl and the fake sister kind of help draw him out of that.

I can’t really remember the ending, but I remember really liking this one. The main character tries to put up very strict boundaries because of his own personal issues he doesn’t want to face, and feels more comfortable playing roles than being himself, and he really grows past that.

A Flicker in the Dark by Stacy Willingham

I don’t really remember this one too well either, but I do remember looking at other books by the same author shortly after, so I must have liked it well enough.

Dearest by Jacquie Walters

So this one is hard for me to say whether I liked or disliked. It starts off slow and almost like a more deep/arty look at postpartum, where a new mom that is home alone waiting for her deployed husband to return begins to experience weird things. She sends an email to her estranged mom, who shows up and helps her a little. She starts seeing her childhood imaginary friend again too.

And then her husband returns and it gets a bit weird because it turns out her mom has been dead all this time. And then it ramps up until there are actually demons and a monster pops out at the end to kill her.

The way the first half is written is so much like it’s going to be about postpartum that the last half threw me. I kind of disliked the first half and that made me unprepared for how it was actually going to go. You spend so much of the first half thinking she’s just in her head that when it’s bam! real monsters, it’s a bit jarring. I have the feeling I would have liked it a lot better if I had taken her mentality at face value rather than trying to read it under a lens, I guess?

The God of the Woods by Liz Moore

So I’ve gone on and on about not liking thrillers, but here is one I really liked. A rich family owns a summer camp, and one summer their daughter goes missing at the camp. It turns out her younger brother also went missing years ago, and the person that went to jail for that has recently escaped jail. What follows is a look at the interpersonal dramas of each involved.

I think I particularly liked how this ended also. The idea that the girl’s family was too toxic for her to be around and she wanted to escape before she was a legal age to escape, and the end revealing that she is safe and happy just waiting out her time.

Dark Matter by Blake Crouch

This was a re-read because I had a BOTM edition and I wanted to actually read it before giving it the rating to add it to my challenge. I remember really loving this book when I first read it, so much that I immediately recommended it to my closest friends. All of Crouch’s books have been pretty good, but this is probably the best. It starts out with an idea that is fairly stereotypical – two roads diverged, the guy who chose family has been stuck wondering how far he could have got and feels a bit disgruntled with his life, the guy that chose career has made great discoveries and is very successful but wonders “what if” about the other life. He kidnaps and switches spots, thinking he’s doing the family guy a favor. What follows is an interdimensional journey where the one is trying to get back to his family, and we get glimpses of many different worlds.

That in itself is fun. And of course, he gets home. But then what happens?

The story takes it a step further, in a completely logical manner. It’s a multiverse, and there’s many version of him that took different paths and opened different doors on their journeys home, and they’re all arriving to try to get back to his wife and son, and craziness ensues.

There are a lot of stories that would just have had the two guys duking it out, but this took this one logical step further that makes great sense, fits the narrative, and makes it really stand out against other similar stories. And the many variant apocalypses they run across initially are fascinating to see as well.

I loved it then, I still enjoyed it even knowing what was coming. There’s a show, it’s also great. Read it, watch it, I highly recommend all.

American War by Omar El Akkad

I took a brief break from my BOTM books, although I initially found out about this book by browsing the BOTM app. However, it shows as sold out and has never been re-offered by them since I’ve added it to my reading list, so I finally just got it another way to read. It is set in the future, about another American Civil War and some of the specifics of it in relation to the life of a young woman who plays a large role through some of the war, and especially the major events at the end of it. Some of it still feels a bit relevant, though the concerns of the time frame that it was written in kind of date it a bit. That being said, it’s an interesting glimpse into a future where America is collapsing and dividing, and I think the big end event is an engineered virus?

There were bits that were fascinating, but as I mentioned, it feels a bit dated compared to current concerns and some of it was just… boring. Which it seems should have been hard to manage given the subject matter, but it was more concerned with how prescient it could be, I suppose?

Iron Flame by Rebecca Yaros

Second book in The Empyrean. It’s a fun enough series featuring dragon riders and a few smutty scenes. The main argument the characters keep having feels stupid, but anything for tension. He’s graduated but she’s still in school, so there is still the “university” feel to it with training and classes. If it’s your thing, it’s your thing, and if it’s not it’s not.

The Names by Florence Knapp

I loved this one. It opens with a woman taking her son to register his name, and finding herself stuck between three choices – naming the child how her abusive and controlling husband wants, naming the child how she wants, or letting her daughter name the child. The book then diverges showing the life of each child depending on the name that she has chosen, and each is quite drastically different. It was beautiful and contemplative and a little sad. I definitely recommend it.

Yours Truly by Abby Jimenez

There’s less letter writing than you would think for this one. Anyhow, it tries to be enemies to lovers, but like usual, they’re not mutual enemies. The guy, as always, is head over heels first and the girl is just misunderstanding him. Once they get past that, they’re great friends. It turns out he’s a match to be an organ donor for her brother, and because his ex is marrying his brother, he asks her to play the part of his “new girlfriend” that he’s lied to his family about having. They grow closer, and the only misunderstanding that keeps them apart is her thinking that he’s in love with the ex still, which of course somehow doesn’t get explained until the end. Then they happily ever after.

As mentioned, the title suggests more epistolary than it is, but it’s fun and cute. Apparently it is also part of a trilogy, and it does have me interested in reading the others.

Next to Heaven by James Frey

A bit caught up in its artsyness but I didn’t mind it. The characters are wealthy couples in an upscale community who decide to arrange a swinger’s party, but everything about it is all planned from the get go, and a lot of things after are also all part of a plan. It comes together really well, and a lot of pieces are planted with care for it.

Among Friends by Hal Ebbott

Kind of disliked this. So these two guys have been best friends since college, and as a result their families are close and meet together a few times a year. They each have beautiful wives and teenage daughters. During one of these get togethers, one of the guys pins and gropes the other guy’s daughter. The girl keeps it to herself at first, beginning to act out in other ways, but when she gets caught shoplifting she confesses everything to her father. Her father instantly believes her, but everything gets muddled because her mother doesn’t believe her and the guy insists he did no such thing.

For a moment the book plays with an alternative future where her father separates her from these people in order to ensure her safety and to assure her that he is 100% on her side. But then it cuts back to the reality that he is not wealthy and needs his wife’s support to have the life he has and he doesn’t want to cut off his best friend, so the end of the story shows him dragging his daughter back to another get together with the friend’s family, and nothing is ever done about it.

A lot of the book also just revolves around everyone’s negative thoughts and feelings about each other – about their kids, about their spouses, about their friends. Nobody really likes each other, they’re all annoyed at each other, they’re all miserable people.

It was kind of unpleasant.

Don’t Cry For Me by Daniel Black

This is a series of letters from a father to his son discussing the events of his own life and some of how his relationship with his son was framed by the events of his life and his understanding of the world. He is estranged from his son because of his dissolved relationship with his wife and because of how he could not relate to his child. A lot of that estrangement surrounded his son’s being gay, and how his son failed to be as manly as he had been raised to expect men to be. It is mostly an apology for not being more understanding, because the father is on his deathbed and plans to leave the letters to his son.

I enjoyed it. Sometimes with things like this I always get pulled out a bit because of voice. We’re talking about an older gentleman that was generally illiterate and only took up reading and writing later in life. I don’t mind grammar and spelling being nice enough, but sometimes word choice and how artfully something is shared seems to shift me out and wonder if that is how the character would really phrase these things.

Isaac’s Song by Daniel Black

The follow up to Don’t Cry For Me, Isaac discusses his reaction to finding the letters that his dad left, and his relationship with his father and how it was for him growing up as a young gay black man within the time frame of the late 80’s.

Not bad, it’s quite interesting, some of it is also about finding one’s voice and art. I can’t remember what Isaac’s art that he wants to share is at the end though, there is so much that he does throughout the book (he plays piano, paints, and writes). But he’s got a weird relationship with art because his father never seemed to approve, and so he got a degree relating to computers and works in a cubicle.

Some of it is as much about being black as it is about being gay. I do remember one specific scene where they’re at a work Christmas party and he’s singled out by someone wanting him to get on stage and sing because all black people are musical, right? Right? He hard refuses and him and the other black guy at the party commiserate a bit about the expectations that people have based on race.

Anyhow, shortly after settling his father’s things, he tries to find his relationship with art again. A lot of it involves him speaking to his therapist too.

Play Nice by Rachel Harrison

This isn’t too bad but I do remember thinking that it could have been better if the author had fully committed to fleshing out the book within the book and making it less generic. As it is, the book within the book is just there as a plot device and the bits shared with it feel like they’re just getting information out there. Granted, fully fleshing it out might have expanded the novel quite a bit, but I’m not afraid to read a 500 page book if it’s done well.

It’s a demon haunting tied to a house and a girl. She inherits the house after her estranged mother passes, decides she wants to document her process improving it and flipping it and then selling it at a profit. Weird things begin to happen, because there is an actual demon involved, and she realizes she can’t sell the house.

I liked it. Like I said, I felt like more could have been done with it. I could have liked it better.

Divine Rivals by Rebecca Ross

If you’re looking for non smut romance fantasy, this might be up your alley. It has a kind of You’ve Got Mail feel if the characters immediately shipped out to WWI, and if the WWI was a fantasy one involving gods and monsters. The magic is interesting and the world building is great. I quite enjoyed it, and I’m in the middle of the second book at the moment.

The Ten Year Affair by Erin Somers

A man and a woman meet at a baby group after they move to a small town. They become friends and almost have a fling, but realize that would ruin things for their happily-married-with-two-kids lives. So instead they introduce each other to their spouses so they can all be best friends and begin to hang out together. Over the next several years, the woman has a normal friendship with the man but has an entire imaginary world built around them having a torrid affair. One day, the lines actually do cross, and they actually do start to have an affair in real life. The woman’s daydreams begin to focus on reconnecting with her husband and family.

Also, the affair being real is less exciting for her than when it was a fantasy and she finds herself less attracted to her lover. Both marriages suffer a bit when the truth comes out. Her husband implies that he always knew but didn’t want to make a mess by revealing, and the other couple divorces and the wife moves away. I can’t remember if she stays with her husband or not, but she does come to see some of the issues with the guy she’s cheating with, so she doesn’t choose him in the end.

Some of it reflects on living through COVID. I did kind of like this one. I didn’t fully like the characters, but they were relatable.

Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver

A romantic comedy featuring serial killers. It was written in a manner that made it a fast read, but was kind of disappointing for what I was expecting. I mean, serial killers and smut? Sounds amazing. But the smut doesn’t start until late into the book (although there are more than one smutty scene at least). And the serial killers are just basically Norman Bates, Hannibal Lecter, and Leatherface from Texas Chainsaw Massacre. They’re given new names but the settings and characterizations are basically the same as the movies they’re from, and our lovebird serial killers (serial killers that target bad people and serial killers) are just pitted against them on their playing grounds as part of their yearly game to see who can find and kill the killer first.

It makes it a bit more boring than what I was expecting but I will read the other two books, although from what I can tell they mostly just focus on showing the specifics of the relationships of all the brothers. I’m not in a rush to finish this.

Carrie by Stephen King

So, when it became clear I wasn’t going to be finishing my BOTM reading challenge this year, I took a break and finally decided to do a Stephen King run. I’ve read half of his books, but not all. I decided to challenge myself to read just his novels over the next year, starting chronologically with Carrie.

Carrie is the tale of a high school girl who discovers she has telekinetic powers. She is bullied by her schoolmates and terrorized by her mother, but after being asked to prom, she lashes out at her mother. Prom seems to go well for her until a classmate’s prank causes her to snap and then she walks across town, causing chaos – starting with burning down the gym with half of her class locked inside, then emptying the fire hydrants and opening gas lines causing multiple explosions across town. Her religious mother attempts to kill her.

Most of the story is told through interviews, articles, book excerpts, and reports written after the event. Carrie’s openly strong telekinetic abilities are studied at great length, and it is discovered it is a recessive genetic trait that skips generations in women.

It’s a short fun novel, and it introduced us all to the King.

And I’ll be reading a lot of King this year. I’m skipping Dark Tower, because I want to read the entire series in a row, and I am skipping the short story and novella collections, mostly just going down wikipedia’s list of novels. I also watched the old and new Carrie movies after reading the book. Just finished Salem’s Lot, but that will be part of next year’s write up.

Happy New Year!

2024 Reading in Review

All right, so similar to how I wrote a short synopsis of the books I read in 2023 to test my memory, I’m doing the same thing again. Although it occurs to me it would be more of a challenge if I attempted 2023 now, and then saved 2024 for next year. Then I really won’t remember what the hell I read at all. My memory is woefully short. As before, loads of spoilers for what I do remember, and also a fair warning that it may all be wildly inaccurate owing to my fucked memory.

I also realize while looking over my list of reads that I did not read the 4th Harry Potter book. I had planned to read one a year every year until I finished the series, and I just… forgot.

Did I mention the woefully short memory thing yet?

Well, without further ado:

I did finish Loop, which I ended with last year. Can’t remember if I said very much about it. I vaguely remember it twisting the story from Ring and Spiral and making the events of those books part of a virtual world simulation. Sadako becomes a virus that infects the world because of how she proliferates by the end of the second book, and somehow her virtual “cancerization” of the simulation spreads into the real world and causes an untreatable and quickly spreading cancer that threatens the entire world. The main character (who’s name I can’t now remember) goes on a journey to find the origin and the cure, and ends up having to sacrifice himself. It also turns out that he’s basically Ryoji from the previous books. All of the Ring books were a bit harder for me to read – in fact, I kind of found that many of my re-reads were a bit of a slog for me. I don’t know if that means I have changing tastes or what?

The next book I read was part of the Sidequests, if I remember right. I asked a friend for a sci fi story recommendation and read the first book of the Expeditionary Forces series. Earth is taken over by aliens, who basically pull us into an intergalactic war that’s been ongoing for a long time. I remembered thinking it was kind of Mass Effect’y in some ways. Skippy is an AI that pops up halfway through the book and mostly drives the story from that point. It was fun and I might get around to the rest of the story at some point.

A Beautifully Foolish Endeavor was next. It is the follow up book to An Absolutely Remarkable Thing that I read in 2023. I remember it being not quite as good as the first book – it was still an examination of political divides and the way fame effects people, this time spread across more of the main character’s friends instead of focusing just on her (which makes sense because she’s assumed dead the first part of the book). It’s worth reading to finish out the story from the first book and have an actual conclusion that feels like a conclusion, though at this point I don’t remember too much from it. Rivalry alien intelligences, one trying to help humans and one trying to destroy us because of the events of the first book? Something like that?

I read Birthday next. It’s related to the Ring series as well. It contains a set of 3 shorter novella sized stories all set in The Ring universe, and all surrounding the theme of birth with central female characters. I think one story is set around Sadako’s viewpoint, though I don’t remember it. One is set around the death of the girl that rebirths Sadako in the second book, and shows her thoughts right before she dies. And the third is the love interest of the main character of Loop, who gets to briefly see her lover in the scene that ends out that book. It’s worth it if you’re dedicated to seeing everything related to the Ring.

And similarly, while trying to get that book I also found out there was a newer related book to the series by Koji Suzuki called S – in this book, the main character specializes in CGI and is tasked with determining whether a video that shows a man committing suicide is real or not. I really don’t remember very much of this one? I know it involved Sadako spreading herself again, in a newer fashion. The man has a girlfriend who is pregnant and is being threatened in some way by all of this. I think it follows up the main character from Loop trying to reverse the Sadako cancerization of the simulated world since he lives in it now? But from the point of view of a new character trying to figure out what’s going on.

I also spent some time on some art history. While visiting a Van Gogh virtual exhibit in Tulsa, I picked up Vincent Van Gogh: The Complete Paintings. It was 700’ish pages discussing Van Gogh’s life and works, but I did read it all and found it intriguing. I would have liked it better if the paintings they were discussing were placed closer to the pages that were discussing them – I had to flip around a lot to find the painting in question. I did have a smaller book, so I don’t know if there is a version that aligns it better. I liked the formatting of the book from Taschen, so I looked into some of their other art books and also picked up HR Giger. It was a shorter read, and had the same sections repeated in a few different languages. Less comprehensive than the Vincent Van Gogh book, but there were lovely full page spreads of Giger’s art, which I enjoy.

The next book I read was FantasticLand. I read something somewhere that compared it to Lord of the Flies set in a theme park that’s been isolated due to a severe hurricane, told in a World War Z fashion of an interviewer compiling the events from different POVs. Wow, that sounds great. But the result was a kind of chaotic slog that never really grips the way that either Lord of the Flies or World War Z does. It lacked the shock and violence that makes Lord of the Flies question human decency, and it lacked the pathos and humanity that World War Z manages. It might be interesting to someone, but I disliked reading it.

Next was one of my BOTM picks. I’ve been holding off on reading them because I want to hit 30 books for their reading challenge this coming year, so I’ve been building a backlog. But I figured I would go ahead and read Annie Bot anyways. A little high brow so if that’s not your thing you can skip it, but I found it fascinating. Annie is a robot, and as she becomes more aware and learns more about herself and the world around her, she becomes more uncomfortable in her position and her relationship with her owner/boyfriend. And the more realistic and personlike she becomes, the less her owner seems to really enjoy her. It’s an interesting examination of power dynamics and relationship ideals. I remember really liking it, and it wasn’t very long so it was a quick read.

Next I read Shit My Dad Says. You remember the early days of twitter when someone would post some short funny thing that went viral and eventually they got book deals and TV shows and such? Shit My Dad Says was basically a twitter feed that blew up. The book tells different stories from the author’s life in regards to his relationship with his dad, mostly funny, and then kind of attempts a poignant end to wrap things up. It’s a fun read at least, especially if you ever enjoyed that twitter feed. But if you did, you’re very old by now. You’re welcome.

After that, I decided to give in and read one of the romance fantasy novels that are so popular lately. I started with Fourth Wing. The writing style was very easy to read. While it was a fantasy world, a lot of their speech and other things had a very modern manner, so it’s not quite hardcore fantasy – it’s like fantasy-lite, which makes it very accessible for people that aren’t super into fantasy novels. There were a few things that seemed kind of silly, but it wasn’t bad and I do plan to read the other books eventually. The main character, Violet, is forced to enroll to become a dragon rider, which is a school/life path that is considered especially dangerous and results in the most deaths/failures, despite having spent most of her life preparing for a different path. She stubbornly insists on completing and manages to win 2 dragons. There’s a love triangle and a kind of enemies to lovers thing. The book has very sexually open minded characters but there’s only one spicy scene, which was a bit disappointing since the entire sell is that these are supposed to be smutty? (Is it me? Am I the perv?)

I read another BOTM pick after that, The Husbands. This one was a lot of fun. The main character is a single woman who comes home after a bachelorette party with her friend only to find a stranger in her house who claims to be her husband. As she adjusts to finding out that she’s apparently married and that her house and everything in her world reflects that as a truth, he goes into the attic for something and then another man comes down. After that, she goes through a series of husbands, her home and her life changing each time to reflect the differences in each life. Every time a husband goes into the attic, a different husband comes down, and it’s like she ends up in a different universe. She eventually meets a man who has been going through a similar thing – when he locks himself into a space, he comes out to find he’s married to a different person (male or female, he’s bi). They decide they’re not for each other and continue to search for a perfect spouse separately. It’s a story that makes you think about all the possibilties and life choices that we make and where they lead us.

In the end, she realizes she becomes too obsessed with finding perfection and realizes that pattern has to stop. After confirming that certain things that she can’t lose in her life are present (her niblings, her sister being safe, and that she’s not in an abusive relationship), she sends her husband on an errand out of the house before she can see him and make any snap judgements about him, and then she burns down the flat so that she can proceed with living her life. It was an interesting way to finish the book – she has to live with the choices, and can no longer keep slipping in and out of husbands and different lives. I liked it quite a lot. It was also well written and despite the subject doesn’t come across as high brow at all.

Speaking of high brow, I read Roundabout next. There were a few bits that made me laugh out loud. The entire novel skirts around using the letter E at all, which allowed for some creativity but also made it very strained and obvious what it was doing in some parts. I could read some bits quite quickly, and then the rest was kind of a slog.

I re-read House of Leaves. It’s an interesting experimental novel that tells a couple of different stories, although the one that always sticks with me is the haunted house portion. There’s also a frame story about a drug addict obsessing over the story as it was “researched” by an old man that had recently died. It’s not as scary as they say – there are a lot of hidden messages, most of which I have never bothered to hunt down myself although I notice the patterns enough to tell they’re there. It runs a bit overlong to me in some places and can be easy to put down, but what it attempts is very impressive and I do kind of love it.

I also decided to re-read the Animorphs books, but only got through the first 7. In the Invasion, the group of kids meet an Andalite who gives them the ability to change into different animals if they manage to touch them. They’re given this ability so they can attempt to stop the secret invasion of Earth by an alien parisitic species called Yeerks, which are slugs that take over and control bodies. In The Visitor, they investigate one of the Yeerks they know about to try to continue their mission, by using their morph ability to sneak into their Assisstant Principal’s house. I can’t quite remember the Encounter – I think it involved them finding where one of the Yeerk ships source their fresh water from, and they try to infiltrate that ship. Then in The Message, they have a shared dream that leads them to finding the last living Andalite on Earth and rescuing him, only to find that he’s a kid that’s as lost as they are. In The Predator, Marco almost quits (again) until he finds out his Mom (disappeared presumed dead) is actually alive in space as one of the Yeerk leaders. The Capture involves Jake almost being caught by a Yeerk, but his friends manage to starve it out of him – it turns out it’s the same one that inhabited his brother previously as well. The Stranger introduces the Elimist, if I remember right?

In general, the kids are fighting a guerilla war, attempting missions with very little resources or information or back up. They often aren’t fully successful, only managing to be nuisances to the Yeerks, and suffering from PTSD as a result of a lot of the things they go through.

I actually really loved reading the books as a kid, and only finished collecting the entire series as an adult. I’ll probably read them a bit between BOTM books next year.

After that, I re-read The Hobbit, for Hobbit Day. It always surprises me how much I forget from that book, but it is a classic. Very much a child’s introduction to the world that Tolkien created, but still quite fun to read.

Another BOTM pick was The Boyfriend by Freida McFadden. I didn’t really care for the characters that much, and at first it seemed the story would be pretty basic, but the end twist was really well handled and turned around what I felt about the book. Which is what a thriller should do, generally. It was a pretty quick read as well.

The next BOTM pick that I decided to read before 2025 was Again and Again. It was a little hard for me to tell whether I hated or loved this one – it is poignant, a bit on the high brow side. I liked parts of it, and there were parts that didn’t quite make sense for me. When the character finally comes clean and tells the true story of his life, it feels so tragic and empty, and when he finds out what legacy he has left behind, it doesn’t feel full so much as like more tragedy. There is still a bit of a sense of hope to it, I guess. It was a good read, but I could see it being hard to get through for some.

After that, I got sucked into the Dungeon Crawler Carl books by Matt Dinnaman. So far I like them quite a lot. They blend humor and drama well, and the two main characters are a lot of fun. The world is taken over by aliens who are there to harvest a certain element from it, most of humanity is killed and the remainder is offered a chance to enter a dungeon. This dungeon is set up and run like a game show where people across the galaxy watch the participants on a live feed. Carl ends up in the dungeon with his ex girlfriend’s cat, who ends up becoming sentient and acknowledged as a fellow crawler. Together, they’re attempting to survive the dungeon. Donut the cat is fun and smart allecky, and Carl has plenty of attitude as well. I’ve finished the first 6 books and I’m working on the 7th right now. They have just entered the 9th floor, out of a possible total of 18(?) floors. Each floor has a different challenge and environment. The entire game is run by an AI system that is becoming more aware and belligerent (and really into Carl’s feet) as it develops.

Although there are fantasy elements because of the dungeon environment, there is a heavy sci fi undertone. In each book, you learn more and more about the reasons why Earth was harvested/targeted and how the galaxy is run and some of the inequities of the system in place in the outside world. So far, I’m really enjoying this series, and I’ll definitely pick up each book as soon as it’s immediately available.

Which catches me up on 2024.

And into 2025.

Happy New Year!

Sidequests Week 20

The sidequests for this week included going for a walk around the neighborhood, selling or donating something I don’t use anymore, and reading a chapter form a new book.

The book one was a little hard in interpreting – does the book only need to be new to me? Or new as in just recently published? But since I’ve still got my BOTM subscription, I decided to read my book from the previous month, so that would make it both new to me and a book published in April of this year. I started reading The Husbands by Holly Gramazio, and finished reading it by Wednesday night. I enjoyed it a lot, but we’ll see what I still remember when I do my reading write up at the beginning of next year.

I finally decided to put my treadmill on facebook’s marketplace. Mostly I had been putting it off because I dislike interacting with people, but I haven’t used the treadmill in over a year and I don’t keep myself on it for any significant amount of time when I do use it. I have better luck just going to a gym. (although admittedly, I haven’t done that in a long while either)

It was only up for a few days, with a couple of people expressing interest, but mostly they just kept asking me to bring the price down. Finally found a person that seemed interested in looking at it in person and said that he didn’t intend to ask for me to reduce the price, but when I went to eat with my parents for Sunday, they offered to buy it instead. I apologized to the guy, collected the money from my parents, and then helped Dad get it into and out of his truck and situated at their house. Then I showed them how to use it. My Dad kept saying he felt more comfortable having it because Mom likes to go for walks, which made him worry. Lots of people in our town own dogs that they don’t keep very well contained, so it’s not unusual to see some happy-go-lucky fucker waltzing around enjoying some freedom. Most times they’re friendly, and it’s not like dog attacks are common place. But I have seen a few while living here, and Dad has had to fend off an aggressive dog on his walks before, hence his apprehension.

Don’t know if it will get much more use, but Mom does like to walk.

I also did sort through a few drawers and come up with some more clothes to donate, though I haven’t taken them to Goodwill yet.

And then the last one – for for a walk around the neighborhood. Rather than going around the neighborhood, I decided to walk down to a neighborhood feature I never realized was there before. On my drive to work, there is a park that is tucked in behind some houses. I only started using this route to drive to work once I moved into my current home, so I was unaware that the park existed. It’s usually abandoned, though still semi-maintained with the grass being mown regularly. It’s actually very expansive too – when I started walking along its length, I realized that it actually extended all the way back up towards my house. It kind of awkwardly looks into a lot of people’s backyards, and the entrances to the park are very narrow. There are a lot of places were water obviously stands after it rains.

And despite the regular grass cutting, the actual equipment isn’t maintained. The benches rusting, and the playground equipment looked like it was rusting as well, even though I think it had been plastic at one point. The swings were pretty good though. A bit further back was a tennis court, but the metal fencing on one end was completely absent, and there was no net. Even further back was some more tall metal fencing, but I couldn’t tell the purpose – maybe at one point it had been part of a baseball field? Closer to the ditch, set under some trees was some concrete. I think maybe a picnic bench may have sat there before, but now it was just a random patch of concrete in the shade. I didn’t see anyone else, just a rabbit and dogs in their back yards.

I suppose there would almost be some temptation to blame the condition on kids not wanting to go outside anymore, but in this case I think it was purely poor positioning. The park is tucked so awkwardly behind people’s houses that you feel a little like you’re out of place or invading privacy. I’ve lived near this neighborhood since I was a kid and didn’t even know the park was back there. Despite the size of the grounds, there’s zero parking available. And there’s plenty of other play options in our neighborhood, which has two elementary schools. So it just sits back, out of sight, out of mind.

The week was fairly quiet otherwise – due to work scheduling, it ended up being a 6 day work week, and I spent the day off cleaning. I did get a response from my penpal and have already mailed a reply.

2023 Reading in Review

Originally I had glimmers of a plan at the end of 2023 to write a post like this for the New Years. And then… I forgot! Since there’s no real content for today and because it was just the Lunar New Year, I figured I would perhaps do this write up now.

I’m going to go through the list of what I read in Goodreads for 2023 and see how much I even retained from each book. Despite the fact I have always described myself as a person that loves reading, I have been reading woefully little as an adult, and I decided to change that up a bit a few years ago. Not only that, but I wanted Goodreads to become more of a record on what I had read through the year, with start and finish dates as well. I had an account years ago that I deleted because I had packed it full of anything I could remember ever reading, and had also included comics/graphic novels, all of which I have left out of my current profile. Because of that, I’ve been wanting to revisit books I’ve read in the past to get them recorded on Goodreads. So, not all of these were new to me, nor does the list include any comics I’ve been keeping up with.

I wouldn’t really call these reviews necessarily either, just my personal opinions on the books themselves, and I’m going to try to refrain from looking up and refreshing myself on the plot/characters/nuances/themes. Part of it is that I want to see how much I even remember – so if I’ve misremembered it horribly, let that be a reflection on how little impact the story itself made on me. That being said, what I do discuss is going to include spoilers, more than likely.

So, let’s begin.


Starting in October of 2022 I had begun reading Thistlefoot by GennaRose Nethercott, and it took me until the first week of 2023 to finish. This was one of my BOTM choices (I had signed up to the subscription service to broaden what books I choose to read). Part of the reason I was slow in reading it was that it didn’t quite hold my attention – in fact, I don’t really remember the character names at all. But I do remember the characters themselves, and the plot, and I remember loving the story. The book is very poetic and full of the purple prose – flowery and elegant – which was perhaps part of the reason it took me so long to work through it.

The story involves an estranged brother and sister, each with their own special abilities, who inherit a walking house. The backstory of the house itself is tied into the mythology of Baba Yaga as well as the history of the treatment of Jewish people in Russia. The main characters are actually descendents of Baba Yaga’s (if I remember correctly?), and there is some sort of BBEG out to find the house for some nefarious purpose that I also did not retain. For people that enjoy works that are dense with theme and meaning, there is a lot to unpack. Unfortunately I can’t really unpack it all because the book is very not fresh to mind, but I do recall that it seemed to touch upon the idea of generational trauma and family ties, and self-acceptance.

Immediately after finishing Thistlefoot, I started Critical Role: The Mighty Nein – The Nine Eyes of Lucien by Madelein Roux. This book is a tie in to the Critical Role D&D show that includes several voice actors that play D&D together. It is specifically based on one of the characters from their second campaign, Mollymauk Tealeaf. Late in the campaign, it is revealed that Mollymauk’s body used to belong to a man named Lucien, who kind of becomes one of the major end campaign BBEGs. The book goes into Lucien’s backstory prior to the campaign, the events that led to him being drawn in and manipulated by the Eyes of Nine, and then shows his side of the clash with the main characters. As far as tie-in novels go, it was well written and I finished it in a week, which meant that I found it engaging enough. It was also fascinating to get the backstory, and kind of clarified a few things that hadn’t been clear to me before.

The next three books I read were the Chaos Walking books my Patrick Ness. (The Knife of Never Letting Go, The Ask and the Answer, and Monsters of Men.) After watching the Chaos Walking movie when it came out, I was pretty fascinated with the idea of a world where men’s thoughts floated around them, visible for everyone to see, detect, and interpret. That made me interested in the books. The books are quite different than the movie, and I believe handled the romance between the main characters a LOT better. Once again, I forget the names (I umm…. don’t retain names well, you’ll find). The general gist of the story is the main lead (a teenage boy, quickly approaching the age that he will be considered a “man” in his village) is growing up in a town where there are no women. They are settlers on an alien world and he has been told that all the women died long ago. After meeting a girl, the two men that raised him send him away to another town with her, and he learns that there are plenty of women still alive on their world, as well as learning what happened to the women of his town.

Because of the nature of the story, there’s a lot of exploration on feminism and what masculinity and being a man actually means. There’s some degree of moralizing typical to a young adult story (the main ethical dilemma the main character faces involves killing others, and whether he can bring himself to even if it is necessary). There are good people and bad people on both sides, but mostly a lot of the characters are just normal people – they are doing things more to look out for themselves than they are to hurt others. Also because of the world’s native inhabitants, the story touches on themes of colonialism as well. The first book was a faster read for me – I absorbed it in less than a week, but the next two books took a few weeks each, and I remember thinking they were a little more tedious to read through.

I think one thing that stood out to me because I found it almost hilarious was that there were certain threads of similarity through all of the books, and because the books are carried into a trilogy they’re especially samey with the first two books. The main character is stuck with a character that he hates at the beginning, has an antagonistic relationship with, but eventually kind of begrudgingly likes and respects or even loves… and then that character dies. The main characters always get close to their goal and think they’ve come to the end… and then the bad guy wins.

That being said, the ideas (while I don’t agree with all of them) are fascinating, and the setting of the world itself is fantastic. The characters were pretty well fleshed out too. I liked it, but I’m not sure I would ever willingly re-read it.

The next book I read was another BOTM pick, The Writing Retreat by Julia Bartz. It was a quick read, the idea was kind of fun. The main character is a young woman who has been chosen by her favorite author to attend a special writing retreat. She and several other young women are taken to the author’s remote mansion, where she discovers two things: First, one of the other people attending the retreat is her ex-best friend that she had a falling out with. Second, the author wants everyone at the retreat to write an entire novel in the short period of time they are together, and she is offering them her personal insights and a group workshop on those novels. The main character decides to write a historical fiction book about the original owner of the house and his wife.

As fun as the idea was, the execution was kind of meh? I remembered texting a friend about the book after the fact, saying that the entire story was basically the main character coming to terms with the fact that she’s attracted to chicks and then the bad guy gets away. Because the entire falling out she had with her friend was over them sleeping together, and she seems to be coming to terms with her attraction to some of the other characters and the author, who are all women. That, and she realizes she makes an assumption about who the author is fucking around with early on, and turns out to be wrong because she had been too close minded to consider it was another woman. So a lot of the book involves the main character attempting to grasp her sexuality.

The other part is the author actually steals all her work from other people, and is attempting to use the retreat as a means of finding the next novel she can publish. Which is almost a fun idea until the bad guy gets away, and you get the sense the bad guy only gets away because the main character found her sexy. That and the fact that most of the characters form into cliques around whether they hang out with the main character or her ex-friend gave things a kind of catty vibe. So, fun idea, but handled kind of poorly.

Kaikeyi by Vaishnavi Patel was next. Another BOTM pick, a kind of feminist retelling of the Ramayana from the perspective of a character that is sometimes considered a minor “villain” (although that might be too strong of a description of her role). In the Ramayana, Rama (an incarnation of Vishnu) is a young prince who is banished from his kingdom at the request of Kaikeyi, one of his father’s three wives. His father owed his wife a promise, and the promise she asked for was that Rama be banished for 10 years. During his banishment he lives in exile with his wife and brother, during which time his wife is kidnapped and held prisoner by a demon, and he goes on a quest to save her. After becoming a well known hero, he returns after the decade is up and reclaims his place in his kingdom.

The novel tells the story of Kaikeyi from her time as a young girl until the events that led to her asking for Rama to be banished. It took me a few weeks to read because it was a little hard to get into at first, but once I did I could hardly put it down. At first there’s no sense of the presence of gods, because Kaikeyi is not favored by the gods. Because of this lack of favor, Kaikeyi seeks to learn her own power, and following the instructions of a scroll she finds, she learns to enter a state where she can see the physical representation of her relationships with others as a glowing string. The stronger her relationship, the thicker and brighter the thread – and she learns that she can use this thread to manipulate and influence the people around her, so long as she is careful not to push too hard.

She is married to a king who has two other wives already, and using her ability is able to strengthen her position and relationships within her family and kingdom. There is a heavy feminist slant as she manages to take part in her husband’s counsel and advise on how to rule his kingdom and she seeks to improve things for women. In fact, part of her concern with Rama is that he is heavily influenced by a holy man who thinks that Kaikeyi’s efforts on behalf of women are inappropiate. 

Some things I remembered being fascinated by – initially, the gods have little presence, but once Rama is born and meets his wife, the gods have a heavier presence within the story, one that Kaikeyi herself is shown as being on the outside of. Also, in Patel’s retelling, the demon that kidnaps Rama’s wife turns out to be her father, simply attempting to reclaim his lost daughter. The magic of seeing the literal ties that bind relationships was a fun idea too. There is a lot of focus on the relationships between women and women supporting and helping each other.

The next book was The Soulmate by Sally Hepworth. I liked this one a lot – it was a really quick read and I finished it in one day. The story is told from two points of view – one is that of a woman who is married to the perfect man. They buy a house that is situated quite close a cliff, and it turns out it is a popular suicide spot. As such, her husband has become a bit famous locally because he’s become adept at talking people out of their suicides – until one day, he fails. The main character then struggles with whether her husband might have actually pushed the woman over the cliff, especially once she learns the identity of the woman – the wife of a man she claimed to have an affair with before. She also tells the backstory of her entire whirlwind romance with her husband.

The other point of view is the dead woman’s. She also tells the entire story of her relationship with her own husband, and how it seemed kind of detached and impersonal in ways, and left her completely uncertain of how her husband actually felt about her.

I actually don’t want to spoil this one, but as a meditation on what makes a relationship perfect, it’s wonderful. Especially in the sense that the grand romantic gestures that some people make aren’t reflections of true love, but that a true soulmate is someone you build a deeper understanding with over time. The way the entire story pulls together at the end was great. It also meanders a bit (sometimes almost a little too clumsily) into the realm of mental health and mental illnesses.

Half Sick of Shadows by Laura Sebastian! Also another BOTM pick. Another feminist retelling of an older tale, this time Arthurian legend, in which the Lady of Shallot is the main character. In this version, Arthur and his friends grow up in Avalon together before returning to help Arthur become king. Elaine has visions of the future and possible futures, and she uses her abilities to try to steer the course. It was okay. I didn’t dislike it – in fact, there were quite a few things to like, such as Guinevere being basically a werewolf. It was definitely its own take on the legend, imbuing the story with a lot more magic and fantasy, and there were a lot of things to like, but I had read a few other feminist retellings over the past few years and I think at this point I felt quite worn out by them.

The next book I read was more of a novella than a novel. Cycle of the Werewolf by Stephen King. I think perhaps werewolf Guinevere put Silver Bullet on my brain, and I rewatched it around the same time as well. After rewatching the movie, I thought to myself how I had never actually read the story it was based off of, so I decided to do that. It was another 1 day read, being much shorter than anything else I read in 2023. It does differ from the movie in several ways, but the plot is basically the same – mysterious murders occur once a month in a small Maine town around the full moon. It turns out to be a werewolf. Young boy in a wheelchair finds out and with the help of his uncle and sister manages to kill it. It’s Stephen King, so of course I like it.

Critical Role: Vox Machina – Kith & Kin by Marieke Nijkamp was next. It’s based off of characters from the first campaign of Critical Role, telling the backstory of the twins. It covers the time they spent with their father and how they eventually left him to find their own way in a series of flashbacks. The main story itself tells how Vax became embroiled with a thieves guild for his sister’s sake, and they are sent on a job by the guild to retrieve some item. When they approach the town where the item is kept, they are separated in a battle – Vex is taken into the town and kept as a guest of the town’s leader, whereas Vax is helped by a group that is rebelling against the town and the new leadership there. The town is under attack by strange creatures (if I remember right, undead, but I may be wrong), and both groups blame each other. Each twin hears the story from the people that helped them, and so they kind of take opposite sides on the matter at first until they are finally reunited and together they figure out that the magical item they were there to steal in the first place is in the center of it all. Again – as a tie in, it was fine. It was nice to get some background on the characters, and then of course at the end they mention moving on to the place where they would meet the other characters of Vox Machina.

The next book I read was The Power by Naomi Alderman. I knocked this one out in 2 or 3 days, it was really great. It was also another BOTM add on/pick. I think there’s also a TV show based on it, but I haven’t bothered to watch it yet. The main story itself involves women suddenly being able to use a strange power, almost like being able to wield electricity. It is tied to an organ located at the base of the neck that has suddenly just started to grow and develop in women without much explanation. The book follows several narrative threads as different characters react or observe to the shifting power dynamics that occur as this new ability gives women a physical advantage over men, and makes it so that women are no longer the weaker sex. As a result, women begin exhibiting behavior and attitudes very similar to men, and the shift in power results in instability and chaos.

Perhaps most fascinating to me was the bookends. The book is prefaced with a letter from a man to a woman, saying the book is his and he would like her opinion on it. After the main story, there are a series of letters between the fictional male author and the woman he is discussing his work with – it is apparent from these letters that they exist in a world where women have this organ and are considered the dominant sex, and the way that she treats him in these letters is similar to how a man might talk down to a woman in our own world. That, and the arguments that he makes for men in his world have very strong and valid points. I definitely recommend this one, it was a great read.

What I wouldn’t recommend would be the next one. Camp Zero by Michelle Min Sterling, another BOTM pick. It was a quick read, but fuck was it dumb. There’s some environmentalist themes within it – the rising sea levels and global warming have made the future kind of bleak for most people. It has caused some wealthy people to create the first “floating city” that actually floats on the ocean and the main character is a woman who managed to secure a job there. She gets close to the creator of the city, who sends her on some job up in Canada or Alaska or thereabouts to work as a pleasure girl at a place where some other guy is building some other establishment. Her goal is to get close to that guy for something I can’t remember entirely, but all kind of boils down to corporate espionage or sabotage? We also get insight into her backstory being raised by her immigrant Korean mother and helping with the business (a hotel of some sort?) that her father died and left behind to them.

Another part of the story involves a group of women soldiers/scientists who were sent to a base near there to study data about global warming, and they come to the conclusion that the world is basically fucked. They get left pretty much on their own for awhile, then visited by a group of soldiers, but they decide they want to just say fuck the world and live out on the base together. So they devise some sort of plan where they fuck the visitors to see if any of them get pregnant. They’re allowed to stay there for whatever reason and one of them has a daughter and they raise the daughter to be some supposed badass. The daughter talks some townie from nearby into being her live in boyfriend and then for some reason they’re interested in the same place the other main character is, so one of the soldiers infiltrates as the madame in charge of the pleasure girls, the daughter infiltrates as one of the girls, and her boyfriend infiltrates as an employee.

And the other part of the story is some rich boy taking a job teaching at this place, and falling in love with one of the girls.

Anyhow, it all gets messy and convuluted and dumb, and the ending was just stupid. It was just so fucking stupid. It involves the one girl driving to return to the floating city and finding the other (supposedly badass daughter) girl hitchhiking apparently on her way to the same floating city to assassinate head dude there, and they decide to go together. But the mission did not seem at all well thought out. In fact, very few of the missions any of them take seem well thought out. Conceptually the book sounds great, but it’s disappointing and doesn’t live up to the premise.

Revisiting a book I had read years ago, Redwall by Brian Jacques was next. Redwall is a series of books written by Brian Jacques involving anthropomorphized animals, typically rodents. I’m going to try to read the entire series. I’ve read half of them before, when I was a kid, but there are some that I never did get to. Some things about the books are a little problematic, for example you can generally guess at the nature of a creature and whether they are good or bad entirely based on what they are (mice are good, rats are bad. Stoats and weasels are bad, otters and squirrels are good). It felt a little more tedious to read as an adult, although that might be because the first book is fairly rough. I think when I was younger I had started on one of the middle books. The books weren’t written in chronological order, but they tend to generally tell the story of the same locality.

In Redwall, an evil rat warlord named Cluny the Scourge has come to Mossflower Woods and wants to take over Redwall Abbey. The creatures that live there manage to all gather into the Abbey and put up a defense against Cluny. While that is going on, a young mouse living in the Abbey goes on a quest to find the mythical sword of Martin the Warrior, following clues left behind in the Abbey and eventually having to travel out into Mossflower Woods and facing a snake to win the sword back. Then wielding the sword, he helps to bring down Cluny and save the day and win the girl, etcetc. It’s a fantasy story with talking rodents and swords. It’s cute. As mentioned, the first book is a bit simplistic and kind of rough compared to later books, but you can see where a lot of the world that Jacques develops starts at.

Next I revisted World War Z by Max Brooks. I’ve read this book a few times over the year and have also listened to it on audiobook. I’ve always loved it. I’ll probably re-read it again someday. The World War Z movie was fun in itself, but the book is far superior and I would love to see it eventually get a proper treatment as a TV series. The framing device of World War Z is that a man had gotten an assignment to make an official record of WWZ by obtaining interviews with people that lived through it. However, the people that gave him the assignment wanted cold hard facts and he wanted to share the full interviews to really get the human element across, so he has organized the interviews into his own book to share the stories that he has heard. Each chapter is an interview with a different person, each from different backgrounds, that helped share insights into the rise of the zombie apocalypse, as well as how people managed to survive and eventually overcome this threat to humanity. And it’s great. It’s just fucking great. Sure, the story itself is zombies – but the insight to human nature is universal. Have you never read it? Go fucking read it.

The Last Word by Taylor Adams was another BOTM pick. In this thriller, a young woman is working as a house caretaker in a remote area. She has been writing large notes on a board for her nearest neighbor – he does the same, and they read the notes using binoculars (or a telescope? or something). He recommends a book to her and she reads it. The book is godawful trash and she leaves a bad review on it, resulting in her getting into an online tiff with the author. Shortly after, strange things begin to happen around the house and she realizes she’s not alone. Somehow, the author she’s pissed off has found her…

There are things about this one that felt a bit clumsily handled, and I was able to guess most of the ending after a few false start guesses. The initial bad guy is kind of an overdone caricature more than a fleshed out character. That being said, Taylor Adam’s writing style makes for easy reading and I finished this within a few days, absorbing it quickly. I was impressed enough that I looked into what other books he’s done as well. On the one hand, the mislead idea that he goes with first sounded super awesome as a story idea, but even though I guessed the twist to it before the reveal, I still rather liked it.

Next was Existentially Challenged by Yahtzee Croshaw. I’ve been a fan of Yahtzee Croshaw’s Zero Punctuation game reviews for years (fuck… over a decade now? I’m old.) And I’m still watching even now that it is Fully Ramblomatic on the Second Wind youtube channel. As a result, I’ve been reading his books quite faithfully as they come out. Existentially Challenged is the sequel to Differently Morphous, wherein a government branch that handles things of a supernatural or magical nature investigates cases where Lovecraftian creatures may be influencing or possessing people within our world. The main character is a young woman who was initially thought to have special powers (which can occur if someone has been touched or possessed by one of the Lovecraftian beings), but it turns out she’s just got a photographic memory. Despite not having any sort of special power, she is still hired and paired with a man who outwardly appears to be a charlatan, but actually has knowledge and abilties and a past that makes him quite formidable and maybe not as buffoonish as he initially appears to be. It is made clear that part of her assignment includes keeping tabs on her partner and reporting back to their boss about him.

In Existentially Challenged, they face a case that involves dead bodies that appear to have had the life drained from them. They think that the source of this drain may involve a new faith healer that has sprung up, because true healing is almost impossible without shifting one’s own health/life into another, and the faith healer appears to be a young girl that is not suffering any ill effects from her miraculous ability. Also, since the end of the previous novel, their department is officially recognized and public, and they are adjusting to the changes caused by that and the shifting laws around their work. Yahtzee Croshaw’s works are comedies in the vein of Douglas Adams, if perhaps a bit drier in humor.

Revisited The Martian by Andy Weir next. Man gets stuck on Mars and grows potatoes. It’s a good book, and a great movie. I half re-read it to put it on my Goodreads list, and half to be able to rate it for BOTM after buying a copy through them.

After looking up more books by Taylor Adams, I read No Exit next as another BOTM add on. (I was trying to meet their challenges last year). Although it’s a completely different story of its own, there are similar elements as The Last Word. A young woman who hasn’t spoken to her mother in years hears that her mom has cancer and is about to undergo an operation. She drops everything to drive home and ends up stuck in a rest area during a blizzard with a handful of other people. While trying to get some cellphone reception to check on her mom, she finds a little girl being kept captive in the back of one of the vehicles stuck at the rest area, and begins to try to piece together who the vehicle belongs to and who the kidnapper is.

Some of how the main character handles things feels clumsy and unrealistic – if you find a kid in a vehicle, are you really just going to leave her there while you try to figure out who the kidnapper is? There are several other people there so it feels like she should feel safe saying something sooner or being confrontational (granted, in her case that would have gone badly, but still). Also, once again, the mislead on the bad guy is almost more caricature than character, covering for a more compelling bad guy. But I did absorb it quickly again despite all that – as mentioned above, Taylor Adams has a writing style that pulls you along despite it all.

Revisited Mister B. Gone by Clive Barker after that. The concept of the book always amuses me – the book is inhabited by a demon who urges you and begs you to destroy the book throughout the story. As you keep reading, it decides you must want to understand why it’s in a book, and so the demon tells you it’s life story. Starting from when it was a child growing up in hell until it arrives to the surface of our world, through its first interactions with humans, “falling in love” for the first time, and telling how it ended up stuck in the book. To be honest, most of the story doesn’t stick with me so much as the main conceit – the idea of a book addressing the reader, trying to convince them to stop reading and burn the book.

After that, my next BOTM pick was Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin. A book about two childhood friends, a boy and a girl, who work together to make a video game that becomes a hit and as a result they grow their own company and gaming auteurship, with the help of a college friend of the boy’s that helped fund things and ran the business side. It’s kind of an examination of love. I will say that the story kind of reminded me of the backstory of Ready Player One, only where one of the dude’s died instead of the chick. But the dynamic of long time friends who founded a gaming company together where the guy pines after the girl for years and then she marries his handsome friend instead is all there in a very similar fashion.

That being said, it really is a beautiful story, and I absorbed it pretty quickly as well.

Then I re-read Maniac Magee by Jerry Spinelli, half because of a prompt I had received earlier in the year about my favorite book of all time. I used to read this book almost every other year when I was younger. It’s a kid’s book, about an orphan who runs away from his aunt and uncle and spends much of the book trying to find a place to call home. He finds happiness briefly in different places, but something always makes him move on. A very quick one day read, and not very long at all.

After finishing Redwall, I picked up Mossflower, but it took me longer to read, and I was picking up all the other books listed between these two while I slowly worked through it. Mossflower takes place years before Redwall and tells the story of Martin the Warrior. While traveling through Mossflower, he’s taken captive by the warlord wildcat that rules the area and thrown in the dungeons. He’s helped by a mouse thief to escape, and joins with the other woodland creatures who are hiding from wildcat. The warlord is very sickly though, and soon his tempestuous daughter Tsarmina takes over and she is especially cruel and vindictive and wants to bring the woodlanders back under her power. While Tsarmina and the woodlanders fight, Martin goes on a journey to Salamandastron, the ancestral home of the badgers, to bring help back to the fight. Although he does find the place, the badger lord that rules there refuses to return, as he’s embroiled in his own battle that he plans to die in – instead, he reforges Martin’s broken sword and sends him home with some extra help.

I re-read The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood next. I think in part because the letters around The Power had me thinking about the ending chapter of The Handmaid’s Tale, but also just to get it back on my Goodreads list. The Handmaid’s Tale tells the story of a woman who is basically being used as breeding stock within the new zealously religious nation of Gildead, which was formerly the United States. She forms a somewhat improper relationship with her “owner,” meeting him in his study at night, and also begins to have trysts with the driver. The Hulu show is also quite good, and a few years ago Atwood wrote a sequel as well that was pretty decent.

One of the things I always especially loved though was the end, where the narrative is discussed at length as a discovered historical record at a conference. From the names of the people discussing the history of Gilead, it seems that Native American tribes have regained control of the continent and are discussing Gilead almost like it is the past, suggesting that it fails as a nation. They talk about the story in the Handmaid’s Tale by discussing authorship and characters in the story trying to narrow down which historical figures in Gilead’s leadership may be referenced. I find the different take of a story presented afterwards to be fascinating, I guess.

After that, I read Ink Blood Sister Scribe by Emma Torzs, another BOTM pick. A woman is warned by her father that she has to move every year after a certain date or else risk someone attacking her. While living in a very remote place where she thinks she can’t be reached, she decides to stay in place, only to find that she wasn’t safe after all. Meanwhile, her sister lives alone at home after their father’s death, without understanding why her sister won’t visit or come home. And a young man in England discovers that he’s actually a prisoner being used by his “Uncle.” All of this revolves around a system of magic that exists within their world, where books written with special ink made from the blood of rare “scribes” can be imbued with spells, and when those spells are spoken aloud, they provide the effects of the spell. This one took me a few months to read as it was initially hard to get into, and easy to put down. That being said, I loved the worldbuilding and the system of magic, and I liked how the story itself came together.

The next BOTM pick was Shark Heart by Emily Habeck. For some reason in this world there is a disease that causes people to turn into animals (literally). Once someone has progressed far enough, they have to be released into the wild. Shortly after their marriage, the main couple discover that the husband has the disease and will be turning into a shark, and so he has to adjust to the treatments and the life changes that it causes. The chapters are short and the book reads like poetry and feels like a reflection of the wear and tear serious conditions like cancer or alzheimer’s can have on people. It was another one day read. It’s beautiful and wonderful and bittersweet, and very much about love and how love perseveres.

After that I had The End of October by Lawrence Wright as a BOTM add on. It was a fun read about a pandemic, that strangely enough got published right around the time COVID-19 was starting to be a thing in the US. The disease in this particular novel is much more virulent. It was almost a little ridiculous that one character is at the core of knowing all the things and following the path of the pandemic every step of the way. The novel also kind of builds like there’s some overarching sinister plot that unleashed it – and then the revealed truth at the end is just… simple and realistic, and I loved it. I also liked that fewer characters make it to the end than you would think.

I read An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green next. April is walking home one night, spots a giant robot statue in the middle of the street in New York, and calls a friend over to help her make a jokey youtube video about it, naming it Carl. Before she knows it, she’s become an overnight viral sensation by merit of being one of the first people that posted about the robots – who have apppeared in several major cities across the world. She gets an agent and meticulously plans her online persona, becoming a social media star and eventual pundit as the presence of the Carls is polarized into a political issue. Meanwhile, people across the world begin having a shared dream that involves solving puzzles. As matters around the Carls become more polarized and openly violent, April becomes a little obsessed with her own importance and fame, and trying to figure out why the robot is here and what it wants to share through the dream.

It’s kind of a fun story, that’s more about how easily things are polarized into political camps. Also a warning against the problems of fame and letting it go to your head. Generally good. There’s a sequel I just finished reading, but I won’t post about it until next year, I guess. I technically started it right after I finished this book, but left it sitting a few chapters in as I got distracted by other books I wanted to read.

I’ve been in the middle of re-reading one Harry Potter book a year, and in 2023 I read Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. At this point I’ve read all the Harry Potter books multiple times, so I’ve been taking it slow with them – I started it in July and didn’t finish until October. Similarly, I’ll be starting book 4 sometime this July.

After that, it hit October and I decided I wanted to read horror. Specifically Ring by Koji Suzuki, the book that the movie The Ring is based off of. I think I watched the movie right beforehand as well, and it had been awhile since I’d read the book, and I wanted to get it listed back on Goodreads. The story is about a reporter that finds out about the mysterious and linked deaths of four teenagers who watched a cursed video tape. After watching the tape himself, he brings a friend in to help him, and then becomes even more desperate after his wife and infant daughter watch the tape as well. They find that the tape was psychically recorded by Sadako, a young woman with powerful abilties, and try to find out what she wants so they can survive. The book is actually quite slower paced than the movie. The characters are strangely more compelling, especially the friend he brings in, Ryuji, who is hard to get a grasp on even though he plays a major role in all of the first three novels. The book is also a little bit more convuluted and complicated in plot, and includes the small pox virus as part of the will of Sadako’s curse (which is why it wants to be copied/spread) – which becomes more important in future books.

Following that, I started Spiral, the second book of the Ring series. This one picks up right after the first book, following the account of the doctor that performs the autopsy on Ryuji. Ando is a college friend of Ryuji, and follows a strange set of clues that pop up while investigating the cause of death. He meets Ryuji’s young protege/girlfriend and develops a crush on her. Through the clues, he comes across the entire written account the reporter left after the events of the first book, and learns more about the cursed tape – however, all copies have been destroyed before he can watch, the last one being destroyed by Ryuji’s girlfriend after she watched it and disappeared. Despite that, they find out that the reason the reporter was spared was because he created the written account – which now has the capability of spreading the virus. And if an ovulating woman reads that or watches the tape or any media relating to Sadako, then she gives birth to Sadako 7 days later. Sadako has been reborn thanks to Ryuji’s girlfriend, and Ando is given a choice between just letting things run their course, letting the book get published and letting Sadako become the dominant form of life on Earth as she infects everything… or reviving his son, who had died a year ago and who he has been grieving through the entire book. He chooses his son.

Then I started Loop, but I technically didn’t finish it until this year as well.

So that was everything I read in 2023. 31 books in all, more than I’ve read in years, but I’m hoping to try to keep the trend up for this year. I actually remembered a lot more than I expected to as far as plot goes. But I coud hardly remember any character names at all! For some reason I am awful at details like that.

So here’s to the next year of reading – in 2024, the year of the Dragon.