NaNoWriMo

Many things come to an end, and apparently NaNoWriMo no longer exists in an official capacity as of the end of March of this year. Despite that, it is still a fun challenge to try to give oneself. The challenge of National Novel Writing Month is to put out an entire 50,000 word novel within a month. Of course that’s quite short, more like a novella, but fitting that within a month is feasible. That being said, I’m going to attempt one this year. I can’t guarantee I will actually finish, as there is still quite a bit going on in my life. That being said, things have calmed and are getting a little better (two hips surgeries later).

If you divide the original challenge of 50,000 words down to a daily allotment, you would need to write at least 1666 words each day. For November, I’m going to try to write at least 2000 words daily, but keep the goal at 50,000 words. That will give me a little leeway when I (inevitably) start to slack off. It will be a little hit and miss to start because I’m unsure how I will want to do updates – if they will be daily or if I will divide it into twice a week dumps of progress. We’ll see. The last few times I had tried NaNo, I usually didn’t get very far.

Hiatus

I’m really going to have to cede this year’s writing challenge to my friend, I probably won’t be updating the next few weeks, or if I do it won’t be much.

Bad joke of the universe: my boyfriend got hit by a car. Yes. Again. It’s worse this time with a broken left foot and a very badly shattered right hip. So while I get situated with that, I won’t be writing. To make up for it, I may be posting a little into January of next year to hit the full post count for the 2025 writing challenge.

That being said, today is World Poetry Day, if anyone wishes to be all poetic or think about and share their favorite poems. It’s a good day for it.

Week 11 Post 1: Soulmate fin

          After, she was a nervous wreck. When his body was discovered, she was worse. She was absolutely certain that officers would swoop in to arrest her any day, any hour, any minute. Given her poor attempt at a flaying, they suspected a copycat murderer, someone targeting men instead of young women. But then they found his souvenirs.

          Like many serial killers, he had kept something from each of his victims. As it became clear that he was the Flayer, the theory shifted. Perhaps a boyfriend or a family member had sleuthed his identity and decided to get their own revenge? They became the focus of investigations, and although most of them were quite vocal that they were glad he had suffered, none could be pinned for the crime. As the weeks and months unfolded, Agatha became more and more relaxed. She hadn’t been caught. She was certain.

          And she would never have to live with such a detestable individual as her soulmate.

          The next strange dreams started one year later. She dismissed the first few, but they kept occuring. And she realized she was experiencing another Calling.

          Each dream had a very clear pattern. The first one started with a young man stumbling through the woods just ahead of her. He had a good head start, but she knew he wasn’t getting away so she walked at a steady pace – she had stabbed him at least five times, all good and deep. When he finally stumbled and fell, his hands clutching at his bloody shirt, she straddled him. She watched large hands, attached to thick, veiny arms – her hands, her beefy arms – cinch around his delicate neck and squeeze. The hands were pale white against the delicate man’s dark skin, the hooded hazel eyes went wide in terror as the man sputtered and choked in her grip. The mess of jet-black curls clung to his sweat-soaked forehead. She watched the life fade from those eyes.

          The next dream started earlier in the act. She was giving a young man a blowjob. She looked up at his face, his eyes closed in ecstasy, to note how similar looking he had been to the last one. Dark skin. Delicate features. Short buzz cut black hair. He moaned, clutching her hair in his fingers as he finished in her throat. As he lay panting, a slight smile on his lips, a strange anger took her. She pulled the knife from between the seats where she kept it and jabbed him, quick, hard, eight times total. The man gasped, desperately kicking her back and fumbling with the door, sliding out onto the ground, trying to escape. She got out on her own side, walked calmly around the front of her truck. Bent down and gripped his neck tight, pulling him out the rest of the way. Choked the life from him.

          At least five more dreams followed over the next three months, in the same vein: she would seduce some dark skinned, delicate looking young man, drive him out to the woods, and give him a blowjob. Then she would proceed to stab him and choke the life from him. Then bury him in a shallow grave and drive away.

          She began to research this particular string of murders, trying to discern where this serial killer lived. A grim determination set in the pit of her stomach, as heavy as a boulder.

          She couldn’t live with a serial killer as a soulmate.

          She would have to end it.

Week 10 Post 4: Soulmate

          A very loose plan of action formed for Agatha. After studying his murders and where the victims were found, and knowing what vague direction he lived in, she narrowed down where he might live. That weekend she decided to go towards him. She left the phone at home and took one of her larger purses with her, filled with a few things she might need. She had an idea of what she wanted to accomplish, but wasn’t certain any of it would play out how she hoped.

          She drove, not entirely aimless, pulled by the sensation of where he was. As she reached the town that she assumed he resided in, the sensation shifted. She realized he was also on the move. She decided to stop driving and enjoy a large public park, with children and parents in sight on the playground. She sat, feeling his approach, marveling at the thought that he was seeking her out. Agatha had always heard about these things second hand – the Calling, when a person found their mate. She had settled for the idea that it would never happen to her. Even knowing what she planned, she still felt a small thrill of excitement at the thought of his approach.

          It took everything in her to sit still, to keep her head from swiveling back and forth to find him. She knew he was close, getting closer, there… even before she heard his footsteps and felt his weight shift the bench as he sat down. “So you came to see me,” he said.

          She glanced out the corner of her eye to appraise him. He was staring at her, hard, as though trying to read her mind. “It’s what a lot of people do when they’re… finally Called,” she answered. There was a tense moment as they sat quietly. “I know,” she finally whispered. “I know you’re the Flayer. I saw it.”

          He gave her a long appraising look, and then said, his voice low and deep, “And you came anyway. Instead of going to the police?”

          She finally turned her head to look straight at him. “I’m not going to go to the police,” she said truthfully. She saw the doubt flash across his face, and she forced a smile. “You can search me if you want. I’m not wearing a wire.”

          He stood. “I might take you up on that. Come with me.” She wanted to hesitate but knew that any hesitation would look suspicious. Agatha followed him to his car, feeling her heart beat a million miles an hour. She was going to climb into a vehicle with a man she knew was a serial killer. It was insane.

          It wasn’t long before they were back at a small, well-tended home in a quiet neighborhood. She followed him inside, where he offered her a drink. “Coffee? Tea?”

          “Tea. Lots of sugar.” He nodded as he busied himself with making it, giving her a curious look.

          When he was done, he held the steaming mugs in his hand. When she reached for one, he pulled his hand back and nodded at her. “Well. Strip.”

          “Excuse me?” she asked, flushing.

          “To make sure you’re not wearing a wire.”

          Feeling herself turn bright red, she removed her shirt and pants. He eyed her critically, and seeing nothing strapped to her underwear or the undersides of her clothes, he handed her the mug. As she carefully sipped at the hot drink, he grabbed her purse and opened it. She froze, waiting to see his reaction to what he found, but he only pawed gently at the top contents, not digging far enough down. Satisfied there was no listening device, he tossed the purse down on the couch and sat in an armchair. She took a sip. “Satisfied?” she asked, trying hard not to feel self-conscious about being in her underwear.

          “Yes. A little confused. Are you not scared by… what I do?” He took a sip of his own drink. If he was leering at her near nakedness, it wasn’t obvious – she felt almost comfortable.

          She shook her head. “No. I’m not.”

          “So you’re not going to tell anyone?”

          “I only came because of the Calling.” She held the drink close, trying to sap all the warmth from it. “We’re soulmates. I wanted to meet you as soon as possible.”

          He flushed, and looked away. The slight embarrassment made him look almost boyishly sweet, and she could see herself loving him in another world. “I can’t stop,” he finally said, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he spoke. His choked slightly on the words as he pushed them out. “I’ve tried before. I know you’ll probably want me to stop, but…”

          She shook her head, making a reassuring sound, and stood to walk over to him. “I… I was shocked learning about… that. From seeing that. But there was also something… exhilarating about it.” That was half-truth, but she suspected the strong exhilaration and lust that had coursed through the dreams had belonged primarily to him. Still, she needed him to trust her. To let his guard down. “Something… exciting,” she whispered into his ear. She could hear his breath catch. “What’s your name?”

          “Frank,” he murmured. His hands slid up her sides as he stood to kiss her. She leaned eagerly into the kiss, trying to forget that she was making out with a serial killer who skinned his victims alive. Soon, they were shuffling down the hall, to the bedroom. He was undressing, undressed… seeing him naked, she thought about how he had been inside so many dead girls and had to fight the urge to vomit.

          He had her on the bed, was kissing her again. She pulled back, and said, “I want to try something. If you’ll trust me.”

          He smiled at her. “What?”

          “Could I… tie your hands?” She hoped she sounded more shy and embarrassed in asking than she felt. He hesitated a long moment before nodding. Then saved her the trouble of pulling out the zip ties she had brought by disappearing for a moment and reappearing with rope. She smiled sensually at him and made a show of tying his hands to the bed. Then she did the same with his feet. “I’ll be right back,” she promised.

          Outside the room, she dug to the bottom of her purse and removed the gloves she had brought with her. She went into his kitchen and opened a few drawers until she found the largest knife he had. She walked back down the hall, her heart fluttering – was she really going to do this? Would she even get away with it? Before long, she was standing in the doorway, staring at him, her hands angled behind her back.

          He smiled up at her.

          If he screams, the neighbor’s will hear, she thought to herself. And that decided her first stroke.

          She approached him, keeping the knife out of sight until the last second – and then she slammed it through his throat. His grey eyes widened in shock, and he croaked around the blade in his throat.

          Agatha wasn’t as skilled as Frank. It wasn’t a proper revenge for his victims, because he was bleeding out fast from the hole in his neck. But she set to work, carefully peeling back strips of his chest.

          She stopped just after he died. Her original plan had been to replicate one of his crime scenes fully, but she didn’t have the stomach for it. She stared down at what she had done, at the glazed over eyes staring at her in shock. The awareness of his presence had simply blipped out of existence with his dying breath.

          Numbly, she showered in his bathroom. As she watched the blood pooling at her feet, she began puking, and continued heaving until her stomach was empty, until the water was nearly cold. Then she climbed out of the shower. She was still wearing her socks, which were wet. She began to walk around the house, collecting her clothes and pulling them on, not caring that they soaked through immediately. She left the knife on the bed, and shoved the gloves and the mug she had drank from into her purse.

          For a moment, she stood at the door, feeling panicky and light headed. She was certain she had left DNA evidence everywhere, despite her carefulness. But she couldn’t stay in the house another moment.

          It was dark out. She somehow managed to stumble back to the park, back to her car. Sitting in her vehicle, she turned off the radio and drove home in silence.

Week 10 Post 3: Soulmate

          When Agatha felt enough time had passed, she downloaded what she needed to make her browsing truly anonymous. Her first searches were to see if the body she had dreamt of was discovered. It had been found, about a week prior. More than that, she had been right – her boy had been busy. Investigators thought the murder was related to several others, all following the same MO. The flaying, the removal of the organs, the evidence that showed the corpse had been violated after. His activity wasn’t constant – sometimes there was only a week between his murders, sometimes a month. Once a whole three years had passed. They thought he might have a medical background because of the precision in his work, the deft handling.

          The victim’s picture graced every article. Agatha remembered her face well. It made the dream fresh for a moment, and she felt like she might puke again. While she had been waiting, one of the other symptoms of the Calling had manifested. She felt him, like a presence, like a sixth sense, like birds can feel north and south. She felt reassured that he wouldn’t be able to sneak up on her at least – she would feel if he got closer, knew that he was now distant.

          As she looked over the articles, at the pictures of his past victims, she felt very strongly that she couldn’t live with this. She couldn’t love him, or learn to love him. She couldn’t be with him. When the final stages of the Calling set in and he could actively feel her disgust of him at all times, what would he think? Would he fear being turned over to the police? Because she realized she should. She should take what she knew to the police and turn him in immediately How would she be treated by the law and by society for being linked to a serial killer?

And more than that, did she trust that they could hold him prisoner his entire life? Could she trust that they would give him a death penalty? What if he got out or was somehow released?

          Would he kill her?